Summer Season!

So, it's summer. I LOVE summer. While everyone's dreading the heat, I revel in it. I'm a Texan, after all. I like to think my love for summer is why this will be my FOURTH summer in NYC without A/C, but I actually think it's time to put a stop to all that, LOL. This year will be the year for A/C! I said that after the scorcher last summer and I meant to buy it in Winter when it'd be cheap, but I was finishing "An Old Soul" and got caught up. Before I know it, it's JUNE and I'm breaking out the fans yet again, almost dying trying to do Tae Bo in my apartment. Long story short: I need A/C. It's on my urgent to-do list.

The album is out. I'm gigging. I'm doing big things. I'm making connections. I'm meeting people. If you want to know more, you really should just check out KatWebbMusic.com and read the many updates from yours truly. That's actually the reason for this delayed post. I feel like I'm talking about my "status" and my "likes" and how I feel every other profile page, and this one, which is supposed to be more in-depth, fell by the wayside. But really, awesome things are happening. Kat Webb, "An Old Soul", buy it. :) Please and thank you!

ON THE DATING FRONT:
I've gotten rid of my regulars. For real this time! I had been struggling for a while with what to do about them, since I know I no longer wanted to continue with casual sex but their desires in that area kept coming before my own desires to look for something more substantial. Anyway, I've learned this new way of handling problems, which is just to WAIT A WHILE. If the solution doesn't seem readily available, take a moment to breathe. Give it a week. Give it a month. If it's not endangering your life, just put it on the back burner. Then--surprise, surprise!--life takes care of it. I just had to learn what was urgent and what could wait. And then I waited and these stagnant, old people that needed to be flushed out of my life before I could meet someone new just faded away on their own. Schedules didn't line up, I went on vacation, everyone got too busy, and suddenly I was alone on Friday night.

Honestly, the alone part does suck. Who wants to be alone? Thats why the regulars were so appealing--because I had a guaranteed "date" any night I felt like it. They were all just a call or a text away. But it wasn't fulfilling. I felt empty. I was just marking time. And it got to the point where I couldn't even mark time with them while dating and trying to find "the one". I just had to stop everything completely. And I stopped worrying about it and it just happened, without the difficult convo or the tears. Everything just fell into place, or OUT of place, as it were.

And I'm alone. Yep. Alone alone alone. I feel like Jerry in "Jerry Maguire". That's how alone I am. Unlike Jerry, I'm going to work through it. I'm busy, I'm pretty, I'm pretty happy, and hopefully this dating situation will fall into place. Forcing it hasn't worked. Lets see what happens when I just stop giving a shit and keep doing what makes me happy (music). :)